Early morning. The dinning room smelt like coffee and you could hear Greenday playing. "Wake me up... when September ends..."She was loosing her patience. She sat down, took a cigarette and lightened it.
"Where is he?? He was supposed to be back by now! We'll miss the train!!", she thought.
After a few minutes, when she was almost out of her mind, he came in. He looked tired but had a strange smile on his face.
"Where were you??", she asked. "Did you forget we have a train to catch?"
"No, of course I didn't. Things just got ugly at work", he answered.
She felt something was not right. He was avoiding her look. He entered the bathroom and soon she could hear the shouer. After a few minutes he got out of the bathroom, lighted a cigarette and looked at her.
"What is wrong with you?", he asked.
"Nothing", she wispered. "Just... we planed this for so long, dreamt about it for so long... and today you almost make us miss the train. This is so not like you! Nothing you've been doing the last few weeks seems like you! I thought you were tired and stresed out, but I find that hard to belive for whatever reason. It feels almost like you didn't love me anymore."
"Oh, come on! Quit it! We're going on holiday! OUR holiday! It will be great, you'll see! And I do still love you, so stop this nonsense!", he said. But he was looking away. Almost as if he was thinking of something else.
"Now let's go, the train won't wait for us!", he said, taking the backpack she had prepared.On the way to the trainstation (they always travelled by train, gave them a feeling of freedom they used to have when they were young and inlove and tried to keep after the life full of responsabilities came along) neither of them said a word. One last smoke before the train came... Lots of people in the station. She got scared and took his hand. Too many people had this
efect on her, she felt as if they wanted to take away HER train, HER moment...
They found their seats but - out of a well known habit - sat only in one. They never needed 2 seats. She looked through the window for a while, lots of random thoughts coming through her mind. "I have waited for so long for this. My train isn't mine, I have to share it with so many, who don't even understand! This is not what I wanted! He is so far away, lost in a world I'm not allowed in! No! This is not what I want. I want back home! Or anywhere else but here! Somewhere where..."
"I want to get off!", she said.
"What?? What's the matter with you again??", he asked almost angry.
"It doesn't feel right. I want to get off! I don't want to go to the seaside anymore".
"Do as you please", he said. "But you must know... I'm not getting off with you."
She said nothing else. Took her backpack and went to the door. After a while, the train stopped. Again, a lot of people were waiting for it, but this time she didn't care. She passed them, bought another ticket back and waited for her train.
"I don't know what I'll do next", she thought. "He won't come back. Or he'll come back for his things. And I don't even know if I want him to come back. Somewhere, somehow, we missed OUR train... but I still do love him..."
In his train, he was thinking about her. "I don't know how my life will be without her... For the last 5 years all my life was her. I did love her... I do love her... why didn't I get off with her?... because I didn't really want that... Somewhere, somehow, we missed OUR train... but i still do love her..."
